Parenting Issues Discussion of 1/06 - Part II of II

Link to Parenting Issues Part I

Over the years, discussions, emails, and instant-message fightfests begin to take a massive toll on your psyche. With borderline personality disorder, things can be fine one moment and then come completely unhinged the next. I found myself, at times, questioning my own sanity. However, judging by the interactions I had with those others in my life - I knew I wasn't off my rocker. Most of what you've read so far has come after I had a understanding of what I was dealing with. I'll start showing you stuff that long preceded that understanding.

The reply came about an hour later and it was as expected - full of venom, projection, complete lack of acknowledgement for what she does do (or doesn't do) and it's impact on the children. Due to it's length and the number of issues, I'm combining her reply with my follow-up to it, broken up into the items needing to be addressed (as it was in the email reply). She listed 10 items... all of her parts were the contents of one email, all of my comments are from my reply to hers:

(Email follow-ups, 1/26/06)

PEW: Well this is interesting LM. This email shows the total lack of respect that you have always had for me.

LM: Hardly. Pointing out how your words and your actions never seem to match is not being disrespectful, it's being truthful. And get over your respect issue, this is about the kids, not you. Respect is earned, and when you begin to treat me and your own children with respect, you will get it back.

PM: #1 The boys are almost always in bed by 8:30-8:45 and asleep by 9. Despite whatever you think you know. Occassionally I let them stay up later, but that is the exception not the rule.

LM: Then I suppose the 3 times that I called at 9PM or later this month alone and they were awake (one time S6 was asleep) was merely a strange coincidence? You're a liar.

PEW: #2 They do not watch inappropriate shows. We watch the Discovery Channel, Animal Planet (mostly) and Nick. That's basically it.

LM: If you say so. I know that they watch those, was simply suggesting that if there are others, you should consider reviewing them. And it's really not what they are watching, it's the amount of time they watch TV. Studies suggest less than 2 hours of TV a WEEK. You let them watch over 2 hours nearly every day. They are not learning how to interact with other people, including you. And the fact that you have them in NO other activities, diminishes their social skills even further. It's no wonder every time S9 gets a chance to interact on his own with other kids he gets frustrated and potentially violent, he doesn't know how to handle it.

PEW: #3 The computer games I am allowing him to play are educational and the others foster good hand eye coordination. I do not let him play for hours on end. I know you like to believe this, but it's simply not true.

LM: When I call, he is typically watching TV or playing on the computer including during homework and dinner when you should be carrying on a conversation with them, not to mention the times they actually sit and watch you play games on the computer, something you could be doing while they are in bed. I'm fairly certain that the combination of the two that you do are in the neighborhood of several hours. It's really great that you're fostering good hand-eye coordination when what S9 so clearly needs at this point is more time learning how to interact appropriately with others, like sports that will really help his hand eye coordination plus his social skills. My suggestions simply offered ways for him to not be so stimulated on his own and actually move towards continuing to teach him how to play nicely with others, be that you, S6, or both.

PEW: #4 Did you realize that S9's lowest test score this year was a 96? Please don't tell me I need to do anything differently with regard to reading, writing, math or otherwise. I am doing an excellent job with the kids acedemically. Don't need your help there.

LM: I know you like to take all the credit for stuff that is going well and divert all of the blame for the things that aren't going well and this is a prime example. Whether or not you need my help is immaterial... I offered suggestions and will continue to do what I can when I can. But recognize this - it's childish of you to accept no responsibility for the things that go wrong and all of the responsibility for the things that go right. This is typical of you and this particular situation is another in a long line of examples.

PEW: #5 I made an appt for Dr. M------- I told you that yesterday. When we go to court, I am going to try to get it written in the court order that you stop your phone calls to the teachers, counselors, etc....because it only muddies the waters for the kids and what is on THEIR minds. I have a great relationship with Dr. M-------, he was recommended by a psychologist that I work with and he knows me very well. We have great communication...thanks.

LM: Yes, I would love for you to go to court and do that. It will only serve to show exactly what I've been saying all along - that you go out of your way to undermine my relationship with the children and also go out of your way to disrupt communication with the people that are involved in our children's lives - especially teachers and counselors. Maybe you can show your attorney the order which specifically states that if you do anything to disrupt said communication, contact, and availability - you are in contempt. Dust off the order and read it.

PEW: #6 I keep a very close eye on the kids when they play with all other children including J. Neighborkid. S9 told J. Neighborkid he doesn't like his video games, so now they don't play his games anymore, they only play S9's games which are Shreck, Shark Tales and Sponge Bob on Game Cube. But feel free to go knock on my neighbor's door next time you're in town....they already know you're a nutcase.

LM: Sure you do. I suppose you were Johnny-on-the-spot when S6 was pushed nearly in front of a car because of J's aggressive behavior. I won't get into some of the other issues I've been told about... but stop pretending like everyone is an angel under your watch. But hey, if all of the violent video games and gunplay that your neighbor's kid engages in is okay with you, there is nothing I can do about it. Besides, you will always have me to blame, right?

PEW: #7 I had someone at my house last night fixing some plumbing. You could have discussed your plan with me prior to your browbeating the child like you used to do to me for an hour. No wonder he's having problems. He's 7 and you have him on the phone beating his ear for an hour about something that I already handled. I did NOT tell him I was going to ask you for consequences. I told him if he continued to complain about the consequences I gave him, I was going to ask you to give him MORE consequences while he is in [your home state]. That's what I said. The fact is, you needed to communicate to me what he was "freaking out" about, but you refused. He went upstairs, shut himself in his room. I was getting my plumbing fixed and at that moment I could only do one thing and it wasn't going to be deal with your bullshit. I didn't hang up on you in front of the children. S9 was in his room and S6 was playing with the little boy next door in the kitchen. Please don't tell me I put you in the position of being the "bad guy" and me the "good guy". It is the total opposite. If you had them full time, I'd be the good guy and you the bad guy, believe me. I have to dicipline them every single day.....you 4 days per month.

LM: Spare me. While stating that you don't set yourself up as the good guy and me the bad guy you proceed to describe doing just that. Use dad as a "threat." Thanks for acknowledging that while attempting not to acknowledge that. As for your overuse of the word "browbeat" - it certainly was not that. As for your contention that I wouldn't tell you what he was freaking out about, I specifically told you that we were talking about his actions and consequences and twice asked you to join me on the line to hear exactly what the discussion was and was met with you being belligerent and hanging up on me (repeatedly).

PEW: #8 I have never "bullrushed" the children. I have chased them up the steps, when they tell me they are not taking a time out.

LM: It's called "bullrushing" - thanks again for acknowledging what I've said while trying not to acknowledge it.

PEW: I have raised my voice, but I will tell you that I can count on ONE hand the amount of times I have physically diciplined them, so you seriously need to cease your accusations of emotional and physical abuse. They aren't afraid of me, they tell me everything and they tell me off when they feel like they need to. If they were afraid of me, why is the answer "Daddy is much scarier than you" when I ask them why they behave so well at your house?? They say you yell louder than me too. Is that a lie? I don't yell at the children. I don't physically discipline them.

LM: Parents who physically discipline their children do so because they lose control and can't speak appropriately. Physically disciplining them only shows them that when they are angry it's okay to hit someone, great job there PEW, and you wonder why S9 is having problems keeping his hands off kids that don't do what he wants. They've been admonished firmly without yelling or screaming. I don't do to them what I've personally heard you do to them while simply on the phone with one or the other. I've heard about smacks in the mouth. I've heard about smacks in the head. But you can continue to tell S9 that things he says happened never happened and that he is a liar. That's good for him, too.

PEW: #9 I spoke to my lawyer about your cockamamy plan of moving to [here] 2 weeks per month and here is where I stand. Re-establish yourself in [here], then come talk to me. I'm not signing anything on your say so. You can't be trusted. You're practically certifyable, why would I agree to give you 50% custody. The kids need stability and you're as far from stable as it gets.

LM: I didn't say when or how long I would be moving to [there]. I simply said that, if, as you have repeatedly claimed, and I have in multiple writings that if I move back to [there] you would give me 50/50 custody - would you agree to do so... and as expected, you hedged on the basis of finances, reversing course (as usual) because you didn't think it was a realistic possibility. My guess is you fear having to back up your words... words you gave to evaluators, lawyers, and such... something you didn't expect was going to happen anytime soon. It was pretty easy to say you would give me 50/50 when you didn't think there was a possibility of it happening, as usual it made you look like the "good guy" to the counselors. But as I, and you, know, it's not the truth and you proved it yet again. I called your bluff and you showed your true hand, now we'll let the courts see it. I guess that's another bridge we'll have to cross when we get there, but I'll be sure to save this email when you're crying about how *I* cause you to incur legal bills when my suggestion would have done just the opposite... again.

PEW: #10 We will never be able to co-parent together as long as you have a total lack of respect for me. I did want you to talk to S9 last night......talk, not browbeat. But that's your specialty, so I shoulda known better. That's why I have the kids full time and not you. I am the better parent. Sorry but thems the facts.....There are plnty of proffessionals to back me up.

LM: We will never be able to co-parent together because you don't know how. You're a user and a manipulator and always will be. I have professionals that will back me up as well... at least those who have seen your words and/or actions firsthand.

PEW: By the way, I never asked for your input. I was merely letting you know what was going on with our son. Nor did I ask for you assistance. But thanks anyway.

LM: Actually, you did, but even if it weren't true, it doesn't preclude me from addressing issues with my sons in a meaningful way, at least until you sabotaged the effort and attacked me instead of getting on the phone like I asked and assisting in showing S9 that we were on the same page where the problems are concerned.

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That was really productive, wasn't it?

Every once in a while, you have to give that "state of reality" speech, despite the knowing that it will never work. Between the obvious parental alienation going on (dad is so gonna punish you when he calls, acting out towards me in front of the children, cursing me in front of the children, etc.), the projection, the rage - you feel hopeless. All told - this will be my 13th year dealing with this child in a grown-up's body. For DW, she's entering her 4th year as a volunteer in this war. All we do is try to mitigate the impact her behavior has on my children (and hers, too, despite there being no contact). Oh, you'll see...

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Parenting Issues Discussion of 1/06 - Part I of II

This post is one of many examples dating back to the birth of our first child which demonstrate the polar opposite approaches we have regarding parenting the children. Since a person with BPD or suspected of having BPD suffers from developmental issues that stifle the emotional maturation at about 10-years old (give or take a few years) - it's unreasonable to expect that a 10-year old would know how to handle, parent, and raise children appropriately beyond some very basic needs like food, water, shelter, and clothing.

Before I really started to heed the advice of so many others dealing with similar situations involving a spouse or ex-spouse with a personality disorder and stopped engaging and getting into long email exchanges to debate a spouse incapable of understanding and accepting reality - I would do things like what will soon follow. Of course, after 10-years of this bullshit, I entered into such exercises with a realistic expectation that I was wasting my time. This email followed another phone call where, in exasperation, she tells me that she "can't handle the kids." Every once in a while you simply have to try to give that dose of reality.

(LM email 1/25/2006, 12:43PM)

The following are some thoughts and suggestions regarding the behavior of both S9 and S6 for which you asked my input. These are important given the ongoing circumstances, particularly where S9 is concerned.

Bedtime - It is my belief that the boys are kept up entirely too late for their age. I would suggest that their bedtime consistently be 8PM, 8:30PM at the latest (in bed). A lack of sleep contributes pretty significantly to the potential irritability of the boys. Surely you remember how cranky that they could be even at their earliest ages and that doesn’t really change so much at 4 and 7. When they’re tired, they’re cranky, and certainly more easily “set-off” when they are not well-rested. For them to be up as late as 9PM (and beyond in several cases) is not doing them any good. A lack of appropriate rest may well contribute to the frequency of their illnesses, too.

TV - It is my belief that the boys spend too much time watching television, and while I’m not exactly sure what shows that they are watching, I know that many of the cartoons that are available to them after 8PM are geared more towards children of older ages and probably contain a little more violence than S9 should be watching right now given his propensity towards physical confrontations both at home and at school. Further, it does nothing to aid the children in finding ways to interact meaningfully with one another, which, if cultivated, would help in their interaction with others at school.

Computer - It is my belief that S9 spends too much time on the computer playing games, which again fails to foster meaningful interaction with others. In fact, I found it quite disturbing that S9 acted rather demonstrative and belligerent towards you with regard to what he expected you to do and not do with regard to the Fish Tycoon game when I last came to pick them up. You did nothing. I would suggest that you spend more time with them playing interactive games like board games and such, which would certainly aid in continuing to reinforce the good sportsmanship and learning how to play well with others that I have been working so hard to teach him. Clearly, from the episodes that have taken place, S9 has not learned what is appropriate game play given that his most recent choice was to play a “game” with someone who wasn’t interested in playing, probably due entirely to the fact that the game S9 conceived of involved taking away something from J----- against her wishes. Too much computer and tv time will not aid in this development.

Books - S9 can read and does so well. You should consider both reading with him (which I am certain you already do to some degree), but also, replace some TV and computer time with easy books that he can read by himself and then when he is finished, have him tell you what the book was about and give you some highlights and stuff. It will continue to help improve not only his reading skills, but his comprehension and memory and will serve to help him with interacting with you in more positive ways instead of being hyper about when it’s his turn on the computer or what show or movie he can watch next.

Dr. M----- – Despite your contention that the boys are more unruly when they see Dr. M-----, evidence points to the contrary. His last visit being just before Christmas means he went nearly a month without incident. 3 incidents in a span of 3 weeks seems to indicate to me that S9 is missing the productive outlet that Dr. M----- provides when he has regular visits and 2 months don’t pass between them. If you haven’t already, I would be sure that Dr. M----- knows in advance of the situations and that he needs to try to aid S9 in understanding his behavior and work with communicating alternatives to being physical with others when faced with a stressful situation. I will be contacting Dr. ----- prior to their next visit to discuss my concerns in this regard.

J. Neighborkid - Based on your say-so, he is apparently a really nice kid. Based on what very little I know about J. Neighborkid - he plays lots of violent video games and much of his gameplay involves guns and violence. Perhaps you should keep a closer eye on the types of games that these boys play together and more closely monitor their interaction. I know you claim that S9 and/or S6 don't stay over there when he is playing those video games. I only hope that you are being truthful in that regard. I'm concerned for S9, S6, AND J. Neighborkid regarding the types of video games he is allowed to play at such a young age. And you still haven't gotten back to me on the titles of those video games. You're over there enough to know what they are, but I'm guessing you persist in failing to disclose the titles knowing that they are probably not remotely age-appropriate.

Now, while you continue to speak of S9’s ability to allegedly manipulate me without support (only that he may lie to me), you continue to demonstrate just how well he is able to do this to you. I understand that there are times when S9 is not entirely truthful. He has certain “ticks” that tend to tip me off to when he is not being forthright and ultimately, I like to believe that I get to the truth in the overwhelming majority of cases. He knows how I feel about lying. Now, last night was a prime example of what I have repeatedly told you about. We were having a calm discussion about how future instances such as this should be handled. He didn’t like the prospect of having to understand that I would suggest an increasing scale of recess-detention because missing one recess for abusive behavior didn’t seem to be working. I asked him what he thought about the possibility of losing 1 recess for each incident that occurred and gave him the for-instance of losing 5 recesses since this was his 5th incident and if there were a 6th, 7th, or more incidents, he would lose the same number of recesses. That’s when he lost control, started screaming and yelling and got off the phone.

What did you do?

You didn’t calm him down and tell him to act appropriately and continue the discussion – a discussion that you wanted me to have with him. You didn’t respond positively to my suggestion that you get on the line and we discuss the future consequences together so that he knows we are a unified front and have the same concerns about his behavior. You got belligerent with me demanding to know all of the details of our conversation. You didn’t ask him to get back on the phone as I had repeatedly and calmly asked you to do. You did exactly what he knew you would do. You badmouthed me. You repeatedly hung up the phone on me in front of the children. And, as always, rather than focus on the children, you used the situation to further undermine my relationship with the children, not only then, but by telling S9 before I had even called that I was going to tell him what his punishment was. You did this without consulting me first. You do this rather consistently and it’s all in a premeditated effort to put me in the position of “bad guy” and you in the position of “good guy.”

S9 and S6 will never listen to you if you insist that I create limits that you then never enforce. As their mother and primary caregiver, you are responsible for setting the limits and ENFORCING them, not handing them over to me. And when they break the limits, whether at school or at your home, I'm not responsible just because I'm not the primary caregiver. You need to start taking responsibility for their actions and your own actions, or they will never take responsibility for what they do. They will find someone to blame just like you do with me. In our home the boys are responsible for their own behavior and I'm responsible for teaching them appropriate behavior. I don't call you and blame you when they misbehave here. I don't need to call you to dish out consequences for their behavior. My desire is to have primary custody and deal with these issues more consistently and appropriately. Any time you want the roles to be reversed - instead of complaining that I don't do primary caregiver work and pretend to believe that I don't want that - you put it down on paper and let's do it. Don't pacify yourself by claiming that I don't want the kids 24/7 - the fact is - I do.

Your behavior last night reinforced the very behavior in S9 that has you allegedly concerned. When S6 sees how you act with me on the phone, he acts the same way. No wonder he so often gets on the phone, is very short and gets off the phone – he sees how you act and acts accordingly. So it seems that you want me to solve your problems rather than working together to assist in getting S9 (and S6) to understand actions and to behave better in the future to avoid the ongoing situations that have occurred both at school and at home as you have reported.

Your actions are a template for the children. The way you act when stressed and angry is the way they will continue to act. I hear it on the phone when I call. I hear you go from zero-to-freakout when one or the other is doing something that you don’t want them to do. I hear you scream at them and get angry and threaten S6 to get on the phone with me when he is resistant – and you wonder why he doesn’t like to talk to me. And if you wish to lie about this contention, I suggest you allow me to record conversations again so we can see who is lying. I hear their reports of how you treat them when they do something that gets them in trouble. It’s not like they say “I don’t do anything wrong and mom just freaks out for no reason.” They tell me that they’ve gotten in trouble. They tell me that you hit them and threaten them with bodily harm. They tell me that you bull-rush them, chasing them to their room when they don’t go immediately upon order and, in both S9’s and S6’s words “she scares us so bad that we run to our room and shut the door.” Could some of that be fabricated or embellished? I’m sure that there is a chance that some of it may be. However, when the stories are so frequent and detailed, it’s hard to imagine that it’s all a figment of their imagination.

In your mind, it’s an easy out to blame me. But know this – the reality is that their behavior is learned and it’s learned from you. It’s learned from your family. I can’t fix that unless you’re willing to recognize that and work with me – something that I have become increasingly hopeless that you will ever do since the children are your last weapon against me. I’ve experienced nothing sadder in my life than what I have witnessed you do with these boys and I pray that someday you will wake up and change your ways before it is too late.

It’s scary that you have this ongoing alleged offer of 50/50 custody if I just come back to [her state] because you realize that these boys need me more and you need more help. You tell everyone that. You told G---- that. You told A------ that. Now that I am trying to pursue just such an opportunity that would allow that to take place and you refuse because of the impact on your finances? Demand that I pay your outstanding legal bills in exchange for 50/50 custody? Tell me that you can’t because the change in support would force you to have to change your lifestyle? If it wasn’t so sad it would make me laugh that you say one thing in the face of evaluators and attorneys and anyone who would believe your obvious lies – tell one story when it’s convenient for your agenda - and now faced with the realistic possibility that I may be able to find and get back to [her state], you refuse and will fight a joint-custody agreement. As always, it has been about the money for only one person in this relationship – YOU. Your actions, your words, and your lies have always supported that fact. During that entire discussion, there was never a mention of the positive impact a 50/50 arrangement would have on the lives of S9 and S6. Those same postive impacts that you stressed to the counselors, evaluators, and everyone else. All you spoke to was how your finances would be impacted. Sad.

So, you asked for my assistance, there it is. What you do with it is entirely up to you.


~LM

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I sat and braced for the pending storm... knowing that this monumental asshole was going to go off. I couldn't help it. Unless you've experienced it, you can't begin to imagine how helpless you are as a parent when you're dealing with a Psycho Ex-Wife with little or no capacity to grasp her own parental inadequacies.

Make no mistake about this - I do not consider myself a perfect parent by any stretch of the imagination. However, I do love the interaction I have with them. I love to teach the children "stuff" and get as excited about seeing them being excited about having learned something as a child on Christmas morning. I love seeing them interact with others in a positive way. I love seeing them learn from their mistakes. I love it all or, most of it.

The problem I have with PEW is, oftentimes, the children demonstrate more friggin' common-sense and understanding than the one of the persons primarily responsible for their upbringing - their own mother. The bigger issue is, they spend so much time with her and her family of dysfunctional fucktards that I have a hard time believing that they will not grow up with some sort of "interpersonal relationship" problems, if not worse.

To be continued... Link to Parenting Issues Part II

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Christmas 2006: Prelude to the Past - Part IV, Contempt of Court Preview

Our situation has been high-conflict since it's inception in January of 2004. PEW went through two attorneys before deciding she was, herself, an attorney. After firing her second attorney, she began representing herself. For someone engaged in such a war with a Borderline (BPD) this is not good news. Add abuse via the legal system to their arsenal. In the jurisdiction in where we live, it doesn't cost anything to file petitions or have hearings. If the BPD doesn't have an attorney to pay - the legal system becomes their personal playground.

At this point, I am beyond flat-broke. My attorney realizes this but I don't want to lose her. We shift strategies and I have been paying close attention to how things develop in court over the years. Together we decide that I will not let her go, but instead will keep her and we will decide on an issue-by-issue basis if it is something that I can handle on my own. If not, I'll pay her more retainer money. Otherwise, she will review the issues and, if she is convinced it's something I can handle, will offer me some guidance on how to handle things. She believes I have a slam-dunk case for contempt and trusts I can handle the case on my own. I can afford phone conferences and petition filings, it's just that hearings and conferences are costing between $1,000 and $2,000 per event and I just don't have that anymore.

As detailed in Part III, I had my attorney file a contempt of court petition against PEW. Judge Contempt (JC) is beyond fed up with seeing us in front of her. At this point, between conferences and hearings, we've been before her court in the neighborhood of 2-dozen times.

The issues:

- Custodial interference. She violated the court order regarding visitation/custody. The order clearly defines the schedule for the year. As the non-custodial parent, I have every Winter Break, which is typically the week of Christmas. The Christmas holiday itself is defined as 12/24 through 12/25. So, in alternating years that's what each of us get. During my years, I have the children the entire week. During her years, I would get the children on the 26th for the balance of the week.

- Childcare provision. PEW has always been very money-centered. Anything she can do to maximize her "take" - she'll do it. When calculating the child-support figure, they factor in an amount for childcare which is allocated proportionate to income. In past years, we would agree to a licensed care facility and the childcare portion of the support figure was factored in. Then, PEW would withdraw them from the agreed-upon childcare after the support order was entered and place them with a friend of family member, claiming to be paying them as much as we were paying the childcare center.

I don't think so. She did this in 2004. She did this in 2005. Effectively, she gets the child support figure set in stone and then pockets the difference between what we would be paying for the childcare center and what she was paying "friends and family" - substantially less, if anything at all.

In June of 2006, there was a support modification. In an effort to avoid litigation (and paying attorneys) I sacrificed more than $2,000 in credits that were due me (for her inflated childcare costs which I busted her on). My reasoning? I would have paid more than that to go to a hearing with my attorney to keep it. We agreed on the childcare center for the upcoming school year and the support was modified to include the new childcare arrangement.

In September, only one week into the school year, PEW withdrew S6 from "beforecare" and placed him with her neighbor, this time claiming to be paying more than we were paying for beforecare and how lucky "we" were for S6 to be with such a loving person and how convenient it was for her not to have to drive to the beforecare center. Oh bullshit, PEW.

This issue was bought up at the Custody Hearings in October of 2006 and reinforced by JC, but PEW walked out of the courtroom and simply did not return S6 to the agreed-upon childcare center.

Another recurring theme with the BPD:

- The BPD will never make a bonafide offer to settle anything. They live for the fight. They thrive on the engagement with their target.

- There is no offer you can make that a BPD will agree to. It will be the benchmark on which they will force you to give up more.

- There is no court order that the BPD will agree to. The BPD believes themselves a higher authority than anyone and no one can impose their will on them.

- If, by some strange shift in planetary alignment the BPD actually makes you an offer and you agree to its terms - she will "unagree" to it and/or withdraw it because you agreed to it. If you agree to their offer - you must have done something underhanded.

What do I want the court to do? I want the court to impose severe sanctions on her. At the very least I want reimbursement of legal fees preparing for the hearing. I want S6 re-enrolled in the agreed upon childcare facility. I want her to replace my Christmas week of 2006 with Christmas week of 2007 - the entire winter break.

I know it sounds crazy. It is. You will see countless examples of this as we continue to wreck the train.

To be continued... Part V

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PEW Harasses The Entire Family

After not getting more attention from LM, PEW unleashes her venom upon everyone in her contact list. Literally. As Christmas draws to a close we begin getting calls from family members saying that PEW called them crying about how we abandoned the kids on Christmas Eve. WHAT? We fucking drove 4 fucking hours to get the kids, 4 hours I could have been with MY kids, and that whore is crying victim again? We simply say: If you don't want her calling you, tell her so, she won't listen to us.

Little did I know until a week later, she also contacted me. PEW is really starting to unravel at this point and has begun stalking me online. I have written for numerous sites over the last 7 years and my name is pretty much everywhere. Along with my articles are bylines that include my writers e-mail, which I don't check very often as I use another address for family, friends and business. I don't check it until Jan 2nd, but here is what she wrote to me:

(12/26/2006)PEW
I think it's very sad that you KNEW he was going to do this and you didn't do anything to stop it..I have been under a Dr's care for 2 weeks.....fever, etc........also....for a future step-mother to no even get on the phone to say merry christmas....that's VERY telling........what are you thinking????? I'm sad DW....very sad.....I had much more faith in you than you obviously deserved.........it's always been that way...I can't figure out why an attractive woman like yourself...with obviously enough money to be independant would put up with someone like LM..........the only thing I can figure is that you don't think much of yourself......please think of S9 and S6 for a minute.....I know it's hard because their not your kids....but think about how they feel right now??? I have the flu...I have a Dr's note.......I don't know what else to give you guys....

Our Commentary: Oh no she didn't. She has the nerve to write me at an e-mail I NEVER gave her and tell me *I* should think of her children? Was she thinking of MY children when I spent 4 hours driving on Christmas Eve? I thought her kids were having a great time with her? I thought they were happy being there? Isn't that how they are feeling according to her? Flu my ass. First it was one day, then 3 days, and now we are up to sick for 2 weeks. Don't think JC won't notice these inconsistencies.

My response to her: (1/02/2007)DW
I will tell you this once, and once only. The next time you call my business, a personal phone number of mine, or e-mail a personal account of mine that is for anything other than the death or injury of one of your children, I will file harassment charges against you as well as a restraining order. Since my business is in M county, it will be infinitely easier than the last time you and your family decided to harass and threaten me. The same goes for your family, so you should refrain from your desire to send them this e-mail only to have them "come after me" much like a six year old would do.

You were not sick for 2 weeks, seeing as how on Christmas day you said it was only for 3 days which was a lie in and of itself, you and you alone chose to do this again to your children, as you even told LM that you told him a "month ago" you would not drive on Christmas Eve. What I KNEW LM would do, was what he was responsible for, driving to EP. LM and I took 4 hours out of our own Christmas Eve (away from MY children) to drive while you decided to play games yet again with your children's lives. I'm sorry you feel the need to do this.

I no longer talk to your children on the phone because you have scared them into not wanting to talk to me because it makes you feel bad about yourself, they wish to protect you. I will not put them in between us, they are welcome to love me and talk to me when they are in my home, until they are comfortable showing affection for me around you. Hopefully someday you will think about your actions in front of the children and how it affects them, until then, the boys will suffer. For instance, you didn't even look at your children, not to mention mine, when trying to start something in Wendy's when you finally decided to do the right thing and pick up your children on Sunday. It shouldn't surprise me, seeing as how you've done this numerous times during exchanges, and even at court while holding onto your children and trying to incite LM's Mother. It's sad that you have such little self control even in front of your own children. As you so often request of everyone else PEW, I hope someday you will get help for all of your issues and begin putting your children first, including doing your part in exchanges, diets, exercise, co-parenting and much needed therapy for the children.

I know this e-mail will do nothing for you to accept responsibility for yourself or your children, but know that I will no longer take over when you should be responsible. The boys will learn on their own who has cared for them by our actions.

Until then, do not call, e-mail, or visit me, or you will have charges filed against you.

Sincerely,
DW

(1/02/2007) PEW
I won't contact you again....because again, I thought maybe you could be more reasonalbe or rational than LM, but you're not, you're even worse than him. LM and I will settle all of the rest of this in court, hopefully by the end of January. Feel free to TRY to file a restraining order or harrassment charges though....I have news for you, I have not threatened you or harrassed you in any way. We both know that you are the one who is truly responsible for all the "game" playing.
Thanks for your help.

Our commentary: Little did I know this would be the beginning of her following me around, trying to find out how much money I made, trying to make the courts sanction child support against ME, lmfao. Ah yes, but it's all about money for us.

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Christmas 2006: Prelude to the Present - Part III

Outside of the obvious disappointment in not having my children with me for Christmas 2006, we did have a wonderful time. I managed to maintain a happy face throughout the festivities and looked forward to my next scheduled custody weekend with my children.

I awoke on Christmas Day and at some point checked my email to find the following:

(12/25/2006, 3:32AM) PEW: You are unbeliveable.......I don't believe for one second that you didn't have this planned all along. The kid's are not upset with me....they know I've been sick for the past 3 days....they know I couldn't drive out there......you're a really disturbed individual....and a terrible terrible father. The fact is that you didn't want the kids....once again....you had the opportunity to spend "meaningful time" with them....but you just don't want it. It's very sad for them.......sad that you cancelled Christmas on them....and they don't even care.....they'd rather be with me....that's really really sad. You need to get to a psychiatrist....as soon as possible....I don't know what the treatment is for a sociopath....maybe some medication and some psychotherapy.......you need help LM....you're a sick person....and everyone knows it but you.

Our commentary: As my history unfolds on this blog, you will see the exasperating life I've lived and wonder why I stayed as long as I did. Obviously, I've made some mistakes in my life and to say this one was major would be an understatement of epic proportions.

I will draw your attention to the delusional rantings. Notice the revisionist history. I "planned" this all along. Again, her contention is that I had the foresight to anticipate her custodial interference with my magic powers or ESP and it is I who made her do what she did by some unseen force. Notice how, out of nowhere, she was suddenly sick. This is because she fears I will take action and now she needs to create an alibi, a justification for doing what she did, just in case I follow through.

The BPDs failure to accept responsibility for anything is another common characteristic. Obviously, they will go to any length to rewrite history to suit their stories. Worse than that - they believe their truths. The projection is textbook. Their self-importance is textbook. The viciousness with which the BPD will attempt to tear you down psychologically is limitless. There is no boundary that they will not violate.

I go back into low-contact mode.

(12/26/2006, 12:57PM) PEW: It would be very nice if you picked the boys up today. I've been very sick.....no fun for them. I'm going back to the Dr. today hopefully. I can have the Dr. call you to prove I was on anti-biotics last week. You really need to stop being spiteful to me and just do the right thing for them.

Only problem with that offer is that I have to work. I can't just cut and run at her whim, though that is her expectation. That is one of her many entitlements.

(12/28/2006, 12:27AM) PEW: would you like to meet tomorrow night in [Exchange Point]?? or as usual....you don't want the extra time with them?? I bet you're trying to figure out how you can get out of having them all summer too?? this should be good!! God forbid you actually be a father to S9 and S6 instead of [DW's children]. That's it right....you and DW didn't want all four at the same time....too much for the "parents of the year"?? unbelievable LM!!!

Again, she sounds exactly like a 6-year old. Oddly, she hurls a barrage of insults at me while expecting me to again, drop everything and run to take the children off of her hands, so I treat her like one...

(12/28/2006, 12:53PM) LM: If you ask nicely and without all of the disgraceful, disgusting viciousness, I'll be more than willing to answer your email.

(12/28/2006, 2:34PM) PEW: do you want to meet tonight or what?

(12/28/2006, 2:36PM) LM: I think since you destroyed yet another holiday for the boys and me, we should meet at the gas station on [road close to my home]. I already drove to [Exchange Point] once. What do you think about meeting there? ~LM

(12/28/2006, 3:36PM) PEW: I didn't do anything.....
#1 I was VERY sick...not a little sick, I offered to give you a Dr's note. That's all I can do.

#2 I offered to let you pick them up on Saturday...a day early. You were busy.

#3 What were you doing on Christmas Eve anyway that you couldn't get them earlier than 5pm that could possibly be more important than spending Christmas with your children?

#4 All the times you made me drive an additional 3 hours, just to satisfy your desire for vindiction...and you are insensed that I wasn't going to drive on Christmas Eve.

Do you want to get your kids tonight or not? In [Exchange Point]?

(12/28/2006, 3:46PM) PEW: I'm going back to court....in [A Different] County. I'm not putting up with this abuse for another 13 years.....I'm just not. If you don't let me know by noon....I'm not going to drive at all...not even tomorrow......I still have a fever.....I am allowed to be sick and I can prove I'm sick.....psycho.

I agree to meet and pick up the boys at 8PM that evening and we have Christmas on December 29th and make it through the weekend. After returning them to her on New Year's Day, I make plans to file a petition against her for Contempt of Court.

- For custodial inteference for failing to meet me at the required exchange point so that I could enjoy my Christmas holiday and winter break with my children.

- Failing to follow the court order and have the children enrolled in a licensed or otherwise certified childcare facility as agreed in a prior order.

To be continued... Part IV

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