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Archive: June 2008

Interesting Educational Results! Let’s Take a Look…

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Shall we? These thoughts are obviously biased, but I’m really proud of all the children - they’ve all shown improvement or sustained their regularly high level of achievement. Today’s discussion centers on S1 and S2. Keep in mind that I finally achieved shared custody mid-way through the second marking period (of 4).

How did S1 do?

S1 took some state standardized testing this year. Across all categories he finished at the higher end of the “advanced” spectrum. Yes, his parents deserve a lot of credit, but I must tell you, the bulk of his studying - he did, mostly without assistance, and did so consistently between the time 50/50 was enacted (November of 2007) and the end of the year when the tests were taken.

As for regular school stuff:

READING:

1st period: 90. 2nd period: 92. 3rd period: 90. FINISH: 96

In the subcategories, he scored a “3″ (Demonstrates skills with accuracy and without support) on all of them, all year long except one. In marking periods 1 and 2, he scored a “2″ (needs support) in the category “Classwork, accuracy, timeliness, and neatness.” Nice improvement since the 1st-marking period.

MATHEMATICS:

1st period: 80. 2nd period: 93. 3rd period: 98. FINISH: 94

In the subcategories, he scored a “3″ (Demonstrates skills with accuracy and without support) on all of them all year long. Nice improvement since the 1st-marking period.

SPEAKING AND LISTENING:

No numerical grades for this category. In the subcategories, he scored a “3″ (Demonstrates skills with accuracy and without support) on all of them all year long except 1. In marking period 1, he scored a 2 (Demonstrates skills with support). He finished up with three consecutive 3s in that category. Nice improvement since the 1st-marking period.

WRITING:

1st period: 88. 2nd period: 86. 3rd period: 98. FINISH: 92

In the subcategories, he vacillated between a “3″ (Demonstrates skills with accuracy and without support) and a “4″ (advanced level - with no support) on all of them all year long. Nice improvement since the 1st-marking period.

This was important, because despite his early high grades, the neatness of his writing was atrocious, but his content, sentence structure, and his ability to stay focused and provide details was always very good. His neatness, when he applies himself, is now very good and something I worked very hard with him to improve.

SCIENCE:

Only two marking periods for this: 3rd period: 94. FINISH: 93

In the subcategories, he scored a “3″ (Demonstrates skills with accuracy and without support) on all of them all year long. Good work!

SOCIAL STUDIES:

Only two marking periods for this: 1st period: 91. FINISH: 90

In the subcategories, he scored a “3″ (Demonstrates skills with accuracy and without support) on all of them all year long. Good work!

Art, music, library, physical education, and health - all 3s and 4s, though at one point he did have a 2 in music.

In work habits and social development he scored a “S”atisfactory or “G”ood across all categories.

Absences: Less than half the previous 2 years.

Teacher’s Comments: S1 has shown great improvement this year in his work habits. I am very proud of how far he has come. Have a wonderful summer and good luck in the 4th-grade!


How did S2 do?

Being in 1st-grade, they still only do the scoring system 0 - 4. Here is how S2 measured up this year…

READING:

1st period: 2. 2nd period: 2. 3rd period: 3. FINISH: 3

In the subcategories, he scored a “3″ (Demonstrates skills with accuracy and without support) on all of them all year long. Nice improvement since the 1st-marking period. In all 8 subcategories under reading, he went from 2s to 3s from the 1st-half of the year to the 2nd-half of the year.

I wonder if the fact that he tells me that mom doesn’t read to him or with him and I do can be a good reason for some of the improvement?

MATHEMATICS:

Math was handled a little differently that all other concepts and there are no fewer than 20 separate categories under math covering counting, algebraic concepts, geometric concepts, measurement, data use and analysis, and numbers & operations.

In the subcategories, he was predominantly 2s and 3s in the first two marking periods in those items being covered. A “2″ is Child is making adequate progress. Child appears to understand some concepts of problems and attempts to solve them. Child demonstrates an understanding of the concept of skill being assessed that is marginally short of what is expected.”

By the end of the third marking period, S2 rated a 3 in all categories.

By the end of the year, S2 rated all 3s and 4s. A “4″ is Child is making progress that exceeds expectations. Child solves problems correctly and demonstrates a sophisticated and and well-articulated understanding of the skill or concept being studied.

He finished with nine “4s” and thirteen “3s.” In three of those categories, he was a 2 as recently as the 2nd marking period.

I watched this boy go from someone who was uncommunicative and frustrated with his lack of know-how to one who openly and frequently discussed the problems, looking for aid in understanding the problem-solving concepts - to getting snippy with me when I offered to aid him late in the year because “I can do it myself!”

(I made both boys into “private investigators” who use math tools to “solve the mystery” when doing math problems. It was a whole lot of fun when going over the “clues” together to solve the problems.)

SPEAKING & LISTENING:

In the subcategories, he scored a “3″ (Demonstrates skills with accuracy and without support) on all of them all year long, except the troublesome ones. He rated 2s all year long in the sections for “listens to others” and “contributes to class discussions.”

His inability to listen well and follow instructions (the two go hand-in-hand) would be the chief criticism of the teacher all year long… and one I worked on, at times, badgered him about, much the same.

WRITING:

In the subcategories, he scored all 1s and 2s to open the year. (A “1″ = Does not demonstrate the skills, even with support). By the end of the 2nd-marking period, he was 2 in all categories except one in which he scored 3. By the end of the third marking period he was about half-and-half, four 2s and three 3s. By the end of the year, he scored a 3 across all categories. Nice improvement since the 1st-marking period.

In social studies, science, physical education, music, and art - he was 3s all year long across the board.

In work habits and social development, he scored “S”atisfactory and “G”ood in all categories except those most critical. He closed with a “N
“eeds Improvement for “listens attentively and follows instructions” and “demonstrates self-control.”

Apparently, the teacher says he struggles with being easily distracted by his classmates and easily gets enticed into clowning around, which means he needs to be retold class instructions and such.

Absences: Less than half the previous two years.

Teacher’s Comments: S2 has made great progress in reading this last marking period. To maintain this progress, I highly recommend that S2 continue reading every day during the summer. S2 has had some difficulty staying focused on his work. He was easily distracted by other students. I hope you have fun this summer and a great year in 2nd-grade.


Finally, a couple of my own observations:

- Improvement across the board for both boys in critical areas. S2 was the only exception with no great report cards on his classroom behavior and listening skills… which is kind of odd since he is the one usually listening at home and S1 is the one who needs to be told/reminded repeatedly about things.

- The results fly in the face of her oft-repeated assertions (as always, unsupported by any objective evidence) that their schoolwork (among other things) has been suffering since the custody change.

- The teachers did a great job. S1’s teacher, in particular, was very communicative and worked hard to help see that S1 turned some things around in the work ethic department. S2’s teacher, no so much in terms of regular communication. Despite a number of requests that went without response, I wrote asking her to inform me the same day of any ‘negative events’ so that I may address them immediately. This was a great help with S1 because regular reports quickly demonstrated for him that I was “in the know” on a near real-time basis and he wouldn’t slide by without me knowing pretty much everything. The lack of cooperation in that regard, even minimally, with S2’s teacher didn’t help me, didn’t help her, and obviously, didn’t help S2.

Still, these two teachers did a fabulous job.

Am I taking all of the credit on the home front? Certainly not. This is more about showing again that real evidence disproves yet more hysterical claims of the PEW. I know what I do with the children regarding their educations (and activities) and in some cases, what she doesn’t do - because the children tell me.

The kids were happy, healthy, and interested in “school” prior to the split & divorce and thrived in a classroom environment. While they continued to do well when I was NCP, there was some slight backsliding. Finally, since 50/50 and over the course of 2/3s of a school year - they’re achievements are back up again.

I hope I can keep that momentum going in all future years, too!

Thanks to the teachers. The boys got great big “atta’boys” for their efforts and results during the year.

Now… getting S2 to wise up and pay attention in class next year…

She Wants to Gas the Dog!

It’s mid-February 2004. She’s filed for divorce. I’ve moved out of the master bedroom and into one of the extra bedrooms. We’ve had some discussions about how to handle childcare, the house, work, etc. It will be an ongoing process. Once the decision was made by her, there would be no turning back. She filed. It was official. I wasn’t moving out, she was. I told her not to rush and to take her time to make sure that wherever it was she was going, it was appropriate for two growing boys - and safe. It would take her until May to move out, but she did find a good place to live.

This discussion is pretty reasonable and I include it because I want you to pay particularly attention to her attitude regarding our dog. There have probably already been some posts which demonstrate her repeatedly throwing in my face that ultimately, I chose to have our dog put-down because I couldn’t place him with anyone. It was an extremely tough decision, but we’ll get to that later.

If you have a recollection of other posts about the dog, you’ll notice her attitude here, not surprisingly, contradicts her oft-repeated righteous indignation over my decision to have him put to sleep over her alleged strenuous objections and desire to keep him.


PEW: so what do you suggest for [the dog]? The Vet maybe?
LM: I guess. Dunno what they would do.
PEW: Put him to sleep i suppose
LM: You don’t want me GAS HIM DO YOU?!?!
PEW: That’s what I was thinking
LM: Can’t we try the SPCA or find out from friends if anyone would want him? At least at the SPCA he has a shot!
PEW: he’s 10 years old though
LM: oh, there must be somebody. Maybe an ad in the paper? Free to good home?
PEW: well we’ll have to see what comes up as far as my living arrangements. if I get a place to live I guess I’ll take him because I can’t bear to gas him even though I WANT to.


This isn’t the last discussion about our dog. It is the first and her position is abundantly clear, despite her last comment. She doesn’t want the dog. She suggests having him put to sleep. It’s one of many options and the one that sucks the most.


LM: lol. I thought it stunk to high heaven this morning.
PEW: it did….I smelled it too
LM: But I SWEAR… I looked all over the place…
PEW: but I didn’t see the pile
LM: EXCEPT… under the friggin’ desk. I turned over his bed. Under the chairs. Behind them. Everywhere except the desk. I swear! I even smelled him
PEW: well I kicked it with my foot when I sat down
LM: And found it odd that HE didn’t stink.
PEW: that’s how I found it
LM: And he peed, too?
PEW: yes, by the back door
LM: I hope he ain’t gettin’ sick or anything. And that it was just a “going out” thing. But I let him out before I came up last night. Maybe he ate something he shouldn’t have, I dunno.
PEW: it was a good solid dump though
LM: hm
PEW: so I don’t think he’s sick
LM: odd. Maybe I just asked him in too quickly.
PEW: maybe he’s pissed at us


The dog occasionally did this. He was well-trained, but had his moments. He had a big cyst or tumor on his back. It resembled a half-softball sticking out on top of him, cheated towards the right side over his leg. It never seemed to bother him, it was just unsightly. Over time, the vet never really said anything about it. He could biopsy it, but it would cost some serious coin, which we weren’t willing to shell out at the time. Ultimately, we wouldn’t ever do it.


LM: I spoke to [the CEO] today. He said that I could work flex time for three days
PEW: ok…..really? wow. that’s great
LM: I explained to him as briefly as possible our predicament. That child care is FAR too expensive for 2-1/2 hours of coverage for 3 days. That I didn’t know how long that I needed it. That we’re trying to find reliable babysit coverage. But that it would benefit the kids if we could accommodate something. He said fine. I could work at home. Come in at 7. I would just need to periodically show some home progress. And be available via phone. And to tell nobody else who doesn’t need to know.
PEW: ok
LM: I thanked him profusely.
PEW: if you WANTED to, i’m sure we could ask PP for one day on the 3 day week
LM: We’ll burn that bridge when we come to it.
PEW: so I’ll call my boss then and i’ll find out how much it would be to have the kids covered under me. it’s gotta be less than what you’re paying. my dad knows the county sherriff…. he said he may be able to get me a job there so I’m not sure how long i’ll be at [my current job] till I can get something better paying
LM: No problem. The accommodation is there. So let’s take advantage of it.
PEW: ok
LM: He asked me if I wanted to reschedule the training. I told him no, because the initiative is too important to the company.
PEW: that was nice
LM: We’ll make adjustments as we can.
PEW: i’m sure we can figure something out for those two weeks


The place where I was employed was very flexible and understood completely about my situation. (We actually met there, PEW and I.) They didn’t ask a lot of questions, but bent over backwards to accommodate me throughout the whole ordeal… before I would bail out on them about a year later, unfortunately for some reasons, necessity in others, need for change in another.

The year ahead would be very rough and rife with many mistakes on my part.

Thanks for Nothing UPS!

This past weekend, DW - special woman that she is - had a surprise birthday party for me. Friends, family, neighbors - it was a really incredible bash. Live music in the living room, good food, and too much good to drink, too. Ugh! It was a great party and that’s probably an understatement.

Thanks again, doll! I love you! It was incredible!

Of course, DW tends to “set the bar high” and I know I have my work cut out for me for some future reciprocity. Yeesh.

In the meantime, due to work, we are apart this week and yesterday was her birthday. Cool dude that I am, I had arranged a special delivery to arrive on her birthday with words of love and adoration attached - wishing her a Happy Birthday! I was so proud of myself. As much an expression of appreciation for last weekend as it was a birthday gift.

I tend to get excited for things like this and I obsess about tracking the shipment as it departs and travels to the destination… HOME.

I go to the UPS site about every 30-seconds…

F5 F5 F5 F5 F5!!! EFF-FRIGGING-FIVER!!!

6/23/2008 - 8:10PM Billing information received.

F5 F5 F5 F5 F5!!! EFF-FRIGGING-FIVER!!!

6/23/2008 - 7:38PM Origin scan.

F5 F5 F5 F5 F5!!! EFF-FRIGGING-FIVER!!!

6/23/2008 - 8:25PM Departure scan. Miami, FL, US

F5 F5 F5 F5 F5!!! EFF-FRIGGING-FIVER!!!

6/23/2008 - 9:20PM Arrival scan.

F5 F5 F5 F5 F5!!! EFF-FRIGGING-FIVER!!!

6/23/2008 - 10:11PM Departure scan. Miami, FL, US

F5 F5 F5 F5 F5!!! EFF-FRIGGING-FIVER!!!

6/24/2008 - 12:44AM Arrival scan. Louisville, KY, US

F5 F5 F5 F5 F5!!! EFF-FRIGGING-FIVER!!!

6/24/2008 - 4:56AM THE PACKAGE WAS DAMAGED IN TRANSIT. UPS WILL NOTIFY THE SENDER WITH DETAILS. DAMAGED MERCHANDISE DISCARDED. UPS WILL NOTIFY THE SENDER WITH DETAILS OF THE DAMAGE.

Thanks for nothing UPS. You SUCK!

Thankfully, when I called the merchant, they were very understanding and, without yet having received notification of the details regarding the original shipment, put together a new package and shipped it to arrive today - on my word alone. Of course, they didn’t provide me a tracking number, so here I sit… waiting… wondering… worrying… if my special birthday delivery will make it to the deserving soul that is the love of my life… DW.

Stay tuned…

UPDATE IN THE COMMENTS! READ ON!

Why Talk About it on the Internet?

I have been reading your site. I am interested in every different viewpoint; but, my personal question to you, is: why, if you really think your ex-wife has serious mental health issues….why is it something to talk about on the internet?

I mean no disrespect; and, like I said, I have been reading some, but I work with mentally ill individuals, and I have also dealt with a serious depressive disorder in my own life. It would disturb me terribly, if I felt that others were speaking of my clients, or myself using terms such as “crazy”, or “nutcase”.

I know first-hand the pain of divorce for children. Of course, my parents have been divorced since I was a year old; however, there were issues all the years of my life between myself and the two of them. I came to realize they were all about getting at each other, instead of showing real concern about me during those times. However, my mother was the one who really cared about me overall. And, I believe from what I have read on your site, that you are the parent who really cares about your childrens’ welfare, overall.

It must be hellish to deal with someone who is potentially borderline. I don’t do well with borderline folks. Most counselors won’t even see them as clients because their personality disorder makes them rather impossible to help. I realize this. It’s just that I can’t understand what purpose it serves to not “rise above” the borderline personality’s issues and focus on the positives in one’s present life.

Honestly, I am very interested in your story, and the stories that others have shared on your site. I just wonder if the benefit of ranting outweighs the stress you experience with this woman and her family members.?

I hope the best for you with your children. My fear is the scars that may result because of your ex-wife’s disorder and the probability that your children will know and feel your stress and resentments toward their mother.

Children do suffer. And I just hope someday the woman will come to realize the issues and seek help for herself. Borderlines can eventually be helped. It’s like anything else; they have to realize they have problems, and the whole thing about the disorder is that they don’t think they do have problems. This is actually part of the disorder. That’s why it is so difficult to work with these folks. BUT, there is hope for them. That would be my wish; for your childrens’ sakes.

Sincerely…
TS

Why is it something I want to talk about on the internet?

There are a lot of reasons why it is something I want to talk about and the feedback I receive from readers supports my decision every single day.

This question was asked of me when I was interviewed for a piece that was published on divorce360.com. In response to that question, I explained, “The site is intended to help people in similar situations. “I had always felt like no one really knew or quite understood the level of chaos that had existed in my life, and this was a way to express it all without burdening others with such horror or having to explain myself, re-explain myself.” It served as a means to tell the truth of my experiences but to no one in particular.”

That is how I defined the reason for starting this site in January of 2008. Soon thereafter, we started getting an incredible amount of feedback from people who truly felt as isolated as I did, going through very similar situations. That’s when the site, for me and hopefully others, took on a more meaningful purpose. I am not alone nor are others who are embroiled in such similar situations. I pray that their realizations prevent them from the self-trapping that I did. I felt I had nowhere to turn and had I discovered a place like this a long time ago, I may have been compelled to make some better choices much earlier in the relationship. Maybe I would have been more honest with myself and with others about what I was going through and gotten more help and guidance for myself and/or the children.

It’s what people do when going through something as significant as this. They isolate themselves out of fear. Fear of a lack of understanding. Fear of burdening others with thier troubles. Fear of abandonment. The sense of relief and the release of the anxiety of feeling so isolated is evident in the communications I get from others.

Contrary to your concerns regarding the potential for my children to sense the stress and resentment - it’s not my website that will risk doing that - it’s the actual experiences that we have all endured and will continue to go through due to the failed relationship between the PEW and I. In fact, I would be quick to tell you that this outlet of sharing and caring greatly reduces the stress and any resentment I feel towards the PEW. Further, it reduces the stress and anxiety those close to me feel (especially DW) because I’m not just unloading on those people. I can do it here and hopefully be doing something productive in the process - not just for me, but for anyone who cruises by here for a read.

On the flip side, I don’t feel bad about the scant few terms I use for my ex-wife and some others in her family. When you consider that I am no longer affected so deeply by the terms that she uses for me, including: spousal abuser, drug addict, alcoholic, homosexual, faggot, impotent, asshole, child abuser, falsely filing reports with CPS, calling the police for no particular reason… and the list goes on and on and on… categorizing her actions as nutty or psycho, aside from being accurate (unlike hers), are tame by comparison. Like you, and I have mentioned it several times on this site - I wish the very same for PEW - that she would recognize what she’s actually going through and take steps to manage it effectively to the benefit of everyone. That is no lie.

Finally, I have many positives which I focus on in life. The work that I do on this site doesn’t mean that I don’t. Every single day is a lot of hard work to rise above the BPD and the experiences of dealing with her. I have a lot to be thankful for - a wonderful partner in DW, 2 children of my own, 2 step-children, great family and friends, a great job, and the list goes on. As long as my site serves to help people, entertain people (to some small degree), educate people, and be an outlet for shaking off the bad experiences… I’ll keep doing it.

~LM

DC Rally 2008 Dies, is Reborn as DC Festival 2008!

I’ve just heard through my email grapevine that last week, the organizers of the DC Rally (a great success in 2007) had to be scuttled this year due to financial reasons (among others). The original rally, slated to take place at The Lincoln Memorial is no more… HOWEVER… they have already shifted gears and are forging ahead with the DC Rally for 2009! From their website:


Our Mission Statement

Our mission is to secure and guarantee the continuation of the American Family with the passage of federal legislation that recognizes and protects our Fundamental Rights.

We are asking the Federal Congress and the State legislatures to support and implement public policies that promote familial preservation and reconciliation, hence civility, in all matters involving the family and all therein because that’s the best option for America.

But WAIT! There is even better news for 2008! The event has been revitalized under a new name - DC FESTIVAL 2008!

In the aftermath of the calls that resulted in the decision to scuttle the original version of this summer’s events, several leaders of “other aligned forces” came together and decide that the show must go on! An upgrade event location was chosen - directly in front of the Capitol Building. The location has plenty of trees for shade (Upper Senate Park), will include live musical entertainment, and even more guest speakers than originally planned.


Washington D.C. at the Upper Senate Park on August 15 - 16, 2008. Exhibition tables of various organizations open at 9:00 AM on August 15, 2008.

Live entertainment will be provided during the exhibition times and in between various speakers that begin later that day.

For more details and late-breaking news, visit their site by clicking on the link: DC FESTIVAL 2008




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